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where the fuck is my poor-as-fuck-roommates au? with two people moving in together because they’re both too freaking poor to afford an apartment on their own.  with the two of them sleeping in the same bed at night because winters get fucking cold and their heat gets shut off on a regular basis. with the two of them showering together because it helps “save on the water bill”.  with the two of them refusing to move out of that hole in the wall even when they can afford to because it’s not just a shitty, run down apartment - it’s home.

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  • Favorite thing about this scene: the Doctor acknowledging his part in sending a companion mixed signals instead of blaming their response to his signals on irrational human-ness (and femaleness). Now go back and say this to Martha, Doctor, preferably with an actual “I’m sorry.”
  • Least favorite thing about this scene: fandom missing the point and continuing to insist that Clara’s a horrible shallow person who just wanted Eleven to be her boyfriend and dislikes Twelve because of that

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All That Remains + things that cannot be unsaid

This is exactly how I see Leandra too. There’s an element in there, of course she doesn’t HATE her children, but there’s such an incredible amount of resentment between her and her eldest child that to write it off as simply grieving is a misnomer, I think. 

I think it’s fairly clear that she resents Hawke for a number of reasons: knowing Malcolm better than she does (implied at the end of Legacy), failing to save him/acting as the head of the family despite the fact that she’s clearly not stepping into the role or even trying, the dead twin, etc. Moreover, I think it’s fairly obvious that Leandra and Malcolm were very much what would have happened if Romeo and Juliet hadn’t had a typically tragic ending: they were young, impulsive, and in “love,” but once you’ve given up everything, what does that really leave you with? A partner you barely know, who you’ve put all your trust into despite that, and despite however much Leandra says she puts love above all-else, we see even in her conversations with Gamlen that this very much isn’t necessarily the case, and she carries a lot of her bitterness with her. She wasn’t ready for what running away really meant, she was young enough to have very likely acted impulsively on a romantic ideal that didn’t pan out in any way she’d actually hoped.

It’s a really dysfunctional, bittersweet relationship, and I can’t at all blame Hawke for thinking this. Hawke’s already got a guilt complex a mile wide, no matter how you really play it; there’s a reason they take on all this responsibility that isn’t even necessarily theirs. With Malcolm, it’s all responsibility, and honor, and doing the right thing no matter how hard it is, and with Leandra, it’s all guilt, residual affects of growing jaded with where unchecked romance really leads.

She can be a caring figure, certainly, when she feels like it, but finding her to be a truly supportive one it a little harder for me, when she relies on her eldest child the way her younger children do. There’s such a lack of responsibility on Leandra’s part: something must always be someone’s fault, because surely SURELY there must still be some good left to come out of a foolish decision she made as a teenager. Their status in Kirkwall is Gamlen’s fault (which is true enough, but he DOES have a point in that she’s been away from home for 25 years; anything he does to drag the “family name” into poverty and squalor is his own doing, and while it’s hard to support his methods, he’s at least grown up enough to recognize the reality of his situation. Is Leandra’s anger at her brother entirely unjustified? No, but at the same time, she continually fails to recognize that she gave up her status, her family name, and her inheritances, and this attitude doesn’t come out of nowhere, suddenly rekindled after two decades of “hiatus.” It’s a failure to take responsibility. 

TL;DR, I seriously appreciate just how incredibly fucked up and dysfunctional Hawke family dynamics really are. It’s a family full of love that Hawke would and continually does put their life on the line for, but it’s not a healthy one. It’s not a supportive one. And I find it really telling that despite Malcolm’s questionable allegiances as an apostate, it’s THIS name that Hawke chooses to symbolize and hang onto, despite the fact that Leandra is clearly very ready to step back into the role of a noble that she’d “left behind.” Is it any surprise that Hawke seems so used to the responsibility, so easily stepping into the role as head of household when their parents are so embittered, disillusioned, and in Malcolm’s case, paranoid and uncommunicative?

Hawke’s so used to being the parent, being the one to take up responsibility that of course it’s going to kill them when they fail; they’ve been conditioned to impossible responsibility and the constant looming threat of guilt.

This depth makes my heart hurt.

Wow, this is such an excellent take. This is not how I’ve usually seen or headcanoned Leandra, but all this insight is really making me want to take a long second look at their relationship. 

I love this. Because it’s not that Leandra doesn’t love her children — of course she does, she adores them — it’s that she’s not a perfect woman: She makes mistakes, jumps to hurtful assumptions, and thrusts too much responsibility on her children, particularly her eldest. Not to mention that she’s still struggling with profound grief, not just over losing her child and her home, but the life she sacrificed everything for. 

She’s not a bad mother (just look at how her children turned out) nor is she a bad person. She’s just a complicated human being, with warts and flaws. Sometimes it’s hard to see them because we self-insert as her child, and it’s always tough to see your parents as people, not ideas,  even when said parents are digital. But I think a read on her character that acknowledges said faults and mistakes is far more illuminating than the alternative.

Personally, I think you can see a lot of Leandra in Carver and vice versa; certainly they manifest their grief in similar (hurtful) ways. I’ve always headcanoned that the two of them were particularly close (and I think there’s some good evidence in-game to support the theory).

this especially makes sense for a mage!hawke, since Carver is like her and not a reminder of how much she gave up for magic and mages.

During the “favorite female video game characters” meme earlier this month, I list Leandra in my top 10 even though she is an NPC, even though there are many other playable female characters and companion female characters I could have listed.

The meta above is why Leandra won a spot in my top 10.  I especially like how Hawke’s dialogue choices and my headcanoning-the-gaps allows me to view some of my Hawke families with Leandra having a sometimes difficult but certainly loving relationship with Hawke and other of my Hawke families as complex and dysfunctional.

Leandra is the kind of female character I don’t see often enough in video games.

Love this analysis of Leandra and the dynamics in the Hawke family. How messed up they are feels so real, because there are so many flaws. They are like any of us. 

I think it’s the most poignant when playing male!mage!Hawke, he would remind Leandra so much of Malcolm - I can imagine it being almost too much to bear, especially as he grows up and becomes the de facto parent of their family…
all my sads

This is honestly part of the reason I prefer DA2 to DAO. I feel so much more for Hawke than I ever did for my Warden, and it’s because we see interactions like these, like the rough relationship with their little brother, and the bitterness from their little sister when they save her life in the only way they can. And what I love most about it is that these family members who frequently antagonize Hawke are not evil, and they don’t ALWAYS antagonize Hawke, which is so true of actual family members and life. There’s Carver’s “Fight me!” moment when Fenris disparagingly mentions that Hawke is a mage. (Because most of us who’ve had siblings know that we can mess with our siblings all we want but if anyone else does there’s going to be trouble.) There’s the fact that Bethany is the sweet loving sister UNTIL you save her life, and next time you see her she’s bitter and a little harsh.  

And I feel like that’s the case for all of the characters in DA2 in a way that it’s not in DAO. Even Meredith and the Arishok, I wouldn’t call either of them evil, not in the way I’d call Howe, or the Arch Demon and the darkspawn evil. Meredith is tragic— not a victim, and I will not blame her evil acts on “insanity” because as a mentally ill person that’s repulsive— but not evil, she just makes bad choices which are a result of the society she lives in and the way she has been indoctrinated by it. And the Arishok is almost entirely sympathetic, seeing as a something that his people hold sacred has been callously stolen and the general disregard that is shown for his people and his religion. He’s brought to a breaking point when a child is murdered because he converted to his religion, after all. (and why people still defend the Chantry after THAT, and the entire Petrice mess, is beyond me. Even if it weren’t for the mages, I hate the chantry because they MURDERED A KID because he had the nerve to convert to a different faith. The moment Seamus was dead I wanted to burn that thing to the ground.)

Howe on the other hand? Greedy, evil jerk. And the Arch Demon is little more than a mindless monster, same with the Darkspawn. There’s just so much more complexity in DA2.